depression's veil

To those I love that struggle with the crippling disease that wraps life in darkness, blinding and pushing away all the signs of love, hope, and the light that surrounds them each day. I see you. I love you.

Entangled in a veil of despair, anger, shame, and suffocating layers of ominous clouds that rarely lift. I cry into the night.

My deafening scream echos in whiteness of not and still of empty washing over me, absent of beginning or end.

I am alone, again.

I swallow back the tears and life hushed in the echo of far too many days  and nights.

Emptiness hangs in the air to remind me of all I am not.

I long for a message a moment of light, a reminder or knowing that I am not alone, I am loved, I am forgiven. I am so much more than the lies I believe.

~sf